The Million Dollar Question

Yesterday, while I was walking my dog I was thinking of a question that I would really like answered. However, I am not going to tell you what the question was, because that is not the point. I was thinking about this particular question and how if I had the answer to it life would be a lot more simple. Everyone has their own "million dollar question," the question that if answered would provide a clear path and a clear conscience. I always think that I would like to sit down with someone older then me, who has lived a full life, and just fire off rounds of question. But then I began to think.........hey, they cleared their own path, so why shouldn't I? If I had the answer to my "million dollar question" then everything would just fall into place? Then I could stop thinking about the many possible answers I had been forming in my head?
No.
Now what fun would that be? We have to make our own answers to out million dollar questions. The range is limitless and we can explore what answer suits us best, because you know that one piece of advice is almost never enough. I think that is what life is about. You began to learn the answers to all your "million dollar questions" by trial and error. Of course your going to make mistakes and not always choose the best answer, but eventually you will get the hang of it. And then you will have answered that mind blogging question yourself, through years of living.
So I challenge you, next time you form a "million dollar question," try and explore it yourself. Ultimately, the answer you will find will be much more gratifying than any answer that could have been provided to you.

Too many thoughts.....?

As I go about each day I always think....hmm this would be something interesting that I could blog about. I probably think that maybe 5-10 times a day....... It is hard to decipher what exactly I think is worthy of being addressed.
Well, I am going to take a different approach.
Here are some topics that have run through my head during the last couple of days:
1. Selfishness
2. Family life
3. Religion
4. College
5. The United States and our present state
6. How much work kids really are....(I babysat for my sister, she has four)
7.How different things are as you grow up
8.How EXTREMELY weird it is to move back home after two years of college
Okay, I am feeling a pull to number eight, lets go. So after two years of college I am home for the summer, to again live under my parents roof and call Trenton my hometown. Now, don't get me wrong there is NOTHING better than being with my family and being home. But I have to say that it is just awkward. I can definitely notice a difference between last summer and this summer. I just feel out of place. I know that this is, and will, always be my home but I feel like I should not be here longer than a weekend. This is very weird for me, considering how homesick I get, but I am beginning to think that I like home in small doses? This is the first "grown up" feeling I have really had while living at home. I think I have finally adjusted to the new phase in my life. Looking back, freshman year seems like somewhat of a transistion period, you like college because it is so new but also miss the home and town that you grew up in for 18 years of your life. Well, I don't know how the second year changes you, or maybe it isn't everyone, maybe it is just me, but I feel like the second year stablizied me in this new phase of my life.
College students, any thoughts?

Life is Scary

Life is not perfect, and I think embracing its imperfections is what makes the experience fulfilling. For example, there will be fights, trying times, sadness, and despair. However, there will also be joy, faith, love, and inspiration. We have to enjoy the good with the bad. The good may not always outweigh the bad but with strong and loving people in your life the bad will not only be bearable but it will also broaden your perspectives as a person. People today are all about instant gratification, selfishness, and personal fulfillment no matter what the cost. When we learn that life is hard but beautiful, it puts us one step ahead of the game. This attitude will be mandatory if you want to live an enjoyable life. Remember you cannot depend on other people for your happiness because if you do happiness will never be yours. Find yourself first. Let me say it again, FIND YOURSELF FIRST. At twenty years old, I am just coming into my own skin. I have so many more enjoyable years learning who I am ON MY OWN. This is important!!!! One cannot search for a partner until they know who they are on their own. Too many people rely/identify themselves by their significant other, and this is a problem. Life is a crazy roller coaster ride, but if you learn to enjoy the ride and let go of the handle bar once in awhile you are going to feel so much better. Granted, we all want to find that person who we can share are lives with. However, don't rule out spending time with yourself! And I am NOT saying be selfish. I am saying find out what you like, what your dreams are, what contribution you want to give to society.
Become aware of your surroundings and become aware of your SELF.

Thats all................

Cactus Tree-Joni Mitchell

Theres a man whos been out sailing
In a decade full of dreams
And he takes her to a schooner
And he treats her like a queen
Bearing beads from california
With their amber stones and green
He has called her from the harbor
He has kissed her with his freedom
He has heard her off to starboard
In the breaking and the breathing
Of the water weeds
While she was busy being free

Theres a man whos climbed a mountain
And hes calling out her name
And he hopes her heart can hear three thousand miles
He calls again
He can think her there beside him
He can miss her just the same
He has missed her in the forest
While he showed her all the flowers
And the branches sang the chorus
As he climbed the scaley towers
Of a forest tree
While she was somewhere being free

Theres a man whos sent a letter
And hes waiting for reply
He has asked her of her travels
Since the day they said goodbye
He writes wish you were beside me
We can make it if we try
He has seen her at the office
With her name on all his papers
Thru the sharing of the profits
He will find it hard to shake her
From his memory
And shes so busy being free

Theres a lady in the city
And she thinks she loves them all
Theres the one whos thinking of her
Theres the one who sometimes calls
Theres the one who writes her letters
With his facts and figures scrawl
She has brought them to her senses
They have laughed inside her laughter
Now she rallies her defenses
For she fears that one will ask her
For eternity
And shes so busy being free

Theres a man who sends her medals
He is bleeding from the war
Theres a jouster and a jester and a man who owns a store
Theres a drummer and a dreamer
And you know there may be more
She will love them when she sees them
They will lose her if they follow
And she only means to please them
And her heart is full and hollow
Like a cactus tree
While shes so busy being free




Just read the lyrics

My JFK Presentation

So if you personally know me, or are my facebook friend (trust me all facebook friends do not personally know each other.......) then you would know that I had a presentation on the movie JFK this morning.
For my political science class we were each assigned a movie to view and then we had to pick out certain issues that were discussed in class. We were then to write a paper about our issues, and we had the option of presenting our paper for 15 extra credit points.
Who doesn't like extra credit? I know I do, it is like a safety net.
Anyways, my presentation was today and I was very nervous. My professor is extremely knowledgeable in political science and I thought that he would catch/correct me on something.
However, at the same time I was extremely proud of the presentation I put together and really wanted to show it off.
So I said a prayer and went up there and talked about what I knew. Surprisingly, it was much easier then I had expected. I felt confident about the issues I picked, and even more confident when I found out that I was the only one who had made a power point......
I finished my presentation and was waiting for the strict scrutiny (political science term!) of my professor to kick in. Well, it didn't. All he said was.......that was excellent. I am sorry, come again? Did you say excellent Professor Stewart? No questions? No nit picking?
This is me on cloud nine. Instead he asked me how/where I got my pictures for my power point because it was a great addition to my presentation.
Woah, wait. No questions about my issues? Meaning covered everything!??!? HALLELUJAH
What a wonderful start to the day!

Worry Wart or Realist?

So every morning I wake up, get my breakfast and sit down to enjoy it while watching the news. Lately, I have been waking up to an overwhelming amount of bleak news, aka the economy. Whenever I turn on the news all I ever hear about is the struggling economy, the outrageous gas prices, and food inflation. So I search my brain. Is this bombardment of bleak news a cause of the 24 hour news cycle, and that is why I feel like it is all I ever hear about? Or is this what is to come? A great depression maybe? Truth be told, I am not really sure. One thing that I do know, is that I cannot remember a time in my life where the economy and gas prices have sucked so much, and that scares me. However, my dad says that I feel this way because this is the first "recession," that I have been aware of. He reminds that the year I was born (1987) there was a stock crash, he crassly asks me, "Do you remember that one?" Of course I don't. I do not know a person who can recall news from the year they were born. His point being that things were bad then, and I just didn't know about them. Okay, I can agree with that. But answer me this, as long as I have been watching the news (say about every morning since 7th grade) I have never heard the news condemn the economy so much. That scares me.
Now you tell me, am I letting my imagination get the best of me?
Am I paying too much attention to my history class?
Maybe, maybe not. All I know is that all this talk reminds me of the events leading up to the great depression.

Loquacious?

Alright, after being inspired by "Cereal Daters," witty, amazing blog, I have decided to give this another go.
Maybe you are wondering why I chose loquacious as my title, lets just say its my new favorite word. Loquacious is not my favorite word because of its definition, in fact its definition does not describe me in the least.
Loquacious-

1.	talking or tending to talk much or freely; talkative; chattering; babbling; garrulous: a loquacious dinner guest.

2.	characterized by excessive talk; wordy: easily the most loquacious play of the season.

I am an introvert, and word vomit does not happen to me. However, get a good cup of coffee in me and I might ramble for a good hour.
I chose loquacious as my title simply for its pleasing sound. Did you just say it to yourself? I bet you did..... Loquacious..... Nice right?
My second choice for the title tonight was.... "Hillary Clinton, stop ruining my life." Granted, I am not a "Hill hater,'" I am a Obama supporter and Ms. Clinton just happened to win the PA primary tonight. While, her winning the primary is not defeat for Obama, it still gets under my skin. However, if for some wild and crazy reason Clinton does become the Democratic Candidate, I will support her because I cannot take another ridiculous Republican. Sorry Republicans :-(
On, that note I will be signing off for the night.
Go Obama!